something to share with the 1st of july

im not so sure whether ive just been too dam scared or that i doubt myself too much to even consider the thought of writing and having other people judge me. my entire life up until i got married 17 months ago i wrote a diary. obviously as i got older i wrote in it less and less in fear of what would happen if someone read it and knew all my secrets or even worse not understand them. im not a perfect speller and my punctuation and grammar might seem a little off at times, i do tend to express myself as if i am literally having a conversation with you. my english is terrible even though it is my native tongue and because i love telling a good story im a massive fan of exaggeration. taking this into consideration what was i thinking writing a biography? for a long time i thought i didn't have it in me to be able to write at all. well things have changed. the idea light bulbs are screwed in and my want to get this done is in full throttle. after having my heart ripped out of my chest and torched and the fact i have always loved writing in secret, recently going back home to New Zealand where i bumped into an old friend turned out to be the unexpected push i needed. there was a group of us... a wee reunion you might say and we caught up through a good old 'welly bender' welly short for wellington. he told me he was doing some proof reading for a bit of extra money and maybe ive been a mushroom, living in the dark but i have never heard of this before. im not sure it will be amazing or if it could ever be something worth publishing but it will be me, about my life so far, i have a few stories up my sleeve more than most people my age and i haven't even reached my 30s. but that is not really why im going to write, it is because i love it and its something i owe to my shy and hidden other self. it will be written they way my up side down mind thinks, with my terrible vocab and my sometimes very toxic pirate mouth. my long lost friend back home in wellington will proof read it and make me sound like a real author with correct spelling, paragraphs and speech marks to boot. i hope you are excited because i am. everything is coming up millhouse! (you have to know me pretty well or that one simpsons episode to understand that one. heh)
talk to you soon.